‘’A Beautiful little girl is running, running and running, giant is trying to stop her but she’s doing Tai Chi, when he goes up she goes down when he goes right she goes left and a beautiful angel was helping her whenever she goes off the track that angel put her back on the track again’’
While watching this on television with her five years old niece she went into a profound (deep) thought.
‘’My life is just like this little girl who keeps running over and over on the same track. Whenever I’m about to finish my race society, a giant, tries to stop me. I’m still doing Tai Chi with them but unfortunately there is a small, too small, difference between me and her which is that i don't know where is my angel or maybe i don't have an angel in my life but tomorrow……. ’’.
Suddenly the door opens and a boorish man with moustache enters the room and starts rebuking her
‘’Sarah! Tell me what you want from us? You know that girls aren’t supposed to leave their homes because they have to live their lives for their families, Is it not enough that i provided you 16 years of education and you are most educated woman of our area? Do you know if you will study further what people will say?’’
This last sentence always dolefully extirpate her from inside but she was stimulated So, these things were unable to stop her from achieving her goals.
‘When i got admission in the university they said many things, that i am characterless and blah blah blah but now they argue that i am most educated woman of our area ’Now I don't know what they will say if i’ll go outside for turning my dream into reality daddy but i know that they will say something incredible when i accomplish it and i know you will be proud of me’
Her father started gnashing his teeth ,shut the door politely and left the room.he said nothing because he loved her too much she was her 5th daughter who was equal to 1000 sons. He also wished for her success but never showed because of the society. He loved her that’s why She was the only female member of her family who studied in university, she was the only one who was 27 yet unmarried. Her father always supported her behind the curtain but he showed his anger towards her due to the negative, reactive society.
When her father left the room She put her glasses on the table and closed her small yet beautiful eyes with pearl of tear rolling down her left cheek and she covered her fulvous face with her duppata ( A small piece of cloth used by subcontinental Muslim women for covering their head).Then instantly she started calming herself as usual by saying “I wont cry, it'll be fine. I'll take my last breath. Push it out my chest 'til there's nothing left.” Then something started provoking her because tomorrow. tomorrow was a big day of her life because she was a step away from her finishing line. ‘But what if i didn’t finish the race’ This thought didn’t let her sleep that night.
Next day’s early morning, she went to her parents room, asked them for their prayers. Her father was not in the room she searched him everywhere in the house but she found him nowhere when she left their room her mom followed her and said
‘ Darling! Go and make us proud today’ in 27 years of her life she saw her mother everyday but for the first time,that day, she felt her mother’s love. She hugged her tightly and river of water started flowing from their eyes.
As usual before going outside of her four walls she covered herself with a long shawl. She got shocked when she saw her father coming from mosque. She never saw him offering prayer. He spoke nothing and went inside.
She left the house and she was promenading somewhere. Cold breeze took her dupatta aside from her face. She was sweating. She stopped where a sign said ‘Bus Stop’ She thought ‘There were many stop signs when i was on my race track but i never stopped but for the first time the stop sign feels like a running sign to me because today….’’ Suddenly horn beeped and she got on her bus. During her whole journey from middle class area of Rawalpindi to Islamabad she was continuously thinking about her whole life journey she was remembering the day when she got admission in university and became a topic of everyone’s discussion but her pro-activeness helped her to overcome negativity she still remembered what her apa(word used for elder sister in Urdu) said ‘It’s a men’s world sweetie, and the sooner you recognize that the sooner you’ll be happy.’ but she knew it was not the truth because world is nothing without women. Giant (society) stopped her at many points when they said ‘girls can't do anything’ but she ignored all the negativity.she was deeply in the thought when suddenly bus stopped and she came back from nostalgia. It's time for her to finish the race she went outside of the bus and saw a huge building. She went inside, her destination was few steps away, she took some steps, with every step her heartbeat getting faster and faster, with every step there were thousands of wounds of fights, with each step there were many dreams of a girl who was broken by the society but she was a powerful girl. As she was two steps away from green colored board, she felt there was no heart inside of her body. Now she was in front of that board, she started searching her name on the list when abruptly she sat down and started crying then she went into sujood and stood up again and shout it out loud ‘I did it, i did it’ someone was patting on her shoulder and said ‘my bureaucrat ’ she turned back stunned and looked behind her, her angel was standing in front of her who was crying with joy and hugged her. She beated the giant, finished the race and found her angel who was no one else but her dad.
By:-
Sehrish Naz
